I'm sitting here alone,
by choice, not from desperation.
It is my own doing why I'm here,
Yet I do not know why I chose this.

The mysteries of life, the mind the heart,
evade me wherever I turn,
and no matter how deep I delve,
it is still beyond my grasp.

This is where my heart has brought me
This is where I want to be,
I seek the pain, I relish the suffering
and still I ache for them to leave.

My words mean nothing, I let them bleed.
Crimson and black upon the page.
I bleed my soul upon this paper,
pretending that it might heal the pain.

I know not what I'm doing, or where I will go,
I know nothing of what I'm writing now.
My mind is racing, my heart is numb,
My fingers sore of writing things down.

I no longer know how to express myself,
what words to use to make you laugh or cry.
You are mine, my love for all eternity
yet at the present moment you are gone.

my friends, my peers, enjoy me terribly,
they wish me close, for all the wrong reasons.
It id not pleasant company that I seek,
it is the touch of those who I love.

I write these words without thinking
no control to what spills out.
My mind is black, my heart is tired,
I will now put this empty pen down.

Today I made it my daily mission to make people happy. It is something I should make a mission of every day.
I have this thing that I have a mission every day. I wake up and decide that today I will tell someone I love them, or do two hundred push-ups before the day is over. I recommend you adopt this habit for yourselves too.
Making people happy is not an easy task, everyone seems to be so unhappy. What makes people so unhappy? I do not know. Am I happy? For the most of the time- yes, I am very happy. But happiness is not something I seek.

To understand how to be happy you first have to understand what happiness is. Most people believe that happiness is something you have to find or get, something only other people or other things can give you. This is high quality french fertilizer- bullshit.

People will seek happiness in their jobs and relationships. People will chase after women and money to find happiness. Some will even go after drugs and addictions to find happiness and do not find it there. That is because happiness cannot be found in a job or in money. It can't be found in friends and family, it can't be found in relationships and women and sex. It can't be found in medication or drugs or addictions. Is it any wonder then that so many people are so unhappy? They waist their time looking for happiness in places that it does not exist.

Well, where can you find happiness then? Look at happiness any way you want to. Look for the explanation of happiness in philosophy and religion. Look at it ethically spiritually, scientifically, biologically, neurologically or chemically. Any way you look at it, every places you find an explanation for it you will find the same answer every time! Happiness is only in the mind and body, exists there, is created there and is found there. It is, like every other thing in your world, a thought going through your mind.

What is the simplest way to be happy? You CHOOSE to be happy. Give yourself the happiness you seek.

By thinking that you are happy, by BELIEVING you are happy, you will be happy! That is all it takes. Because being happy is a mindset, it is a way of thinking, and it is a way of thinking anyone can use at any time anywhere. If you choose to be happy you can be happy no matter what goes on around you.

And being happy is more than just feeling good. Getting into the habit of letting yourself be happy is healthy and productive. Being happy releases endorphins into your bloodstream which heal you faster and make your mind and body work better. faster and healthier. Being happy will help you solve problems quicker and more easily and it will help you get through crises with more ease.

It has been scientifically proved that happy people live longer and healthier lives! It is time that you CHOOSE to let that happen to you, you have no reason not to.

So today you should make it your mission to let yourself be happy, extremely happy, head over heals unreasonably insanely happy about something today. Exaggerate that happiness on that one thing and see how that makes you feel.