You see people, all around you, achieving great things with their life. When I see this I always ask myself, what pushes people to such extremes, that they go against such odds to achieve their goals?

You see a man running, perhaps it is for a marathon, and he'll be running real fast. And yet, people run even faster when they are running away from something. When I see someone running fast, they are running to a goal. They have vision, they have focus, they have a dream. When I see someone running as fast as they can, I know they are trying to escape something. The faster they are running, the greater the dread it is they are running from.

Running away may have propelled people into much greater measures of success than any kind of motivation, dream or vision. No matter how great your vision is, no matter how much you want to achieve it, nothing will motivate you as much as your fears, nothing will get you running faster than what scares you the most.

The snow makes it better. It covers up all the pain and the sorrow. The snow makes everything white and innocent again.

When it snows, I feel like everything is perfect again, all covered in white, no blemishes, no bruises. When it snows, it covers all the pain that I feel, it hides the mistakes and regrets and sorrows.

When it snows I feel like I can be whole again, like nothing ever happened and nothing ever will.

When it snows I can believe that everything is at peace, and for once the storms are silent.

When it snows I can dream peacfully, and wakeup the next morning to silence.

When it snows I look outside and feel protected, cause nothing can be bad in such a white world.

When it snows there is nothing better to do, then to hold you tightly and pretend like nothing has happened before.

When it snows I can start over, and write everything a new, cause the snow paints everything as a new white canvas, and all that was written is now erased.

The snow makes it all feel better.

Why we do what we do:

Why is all this so important?

The world is changing. There is no doubt about it. The world we have today is not the same as the world we had yesterday or last week. We are living in strange times. Things are happening around us that have never happened on this world ever before. Our progress in recent years can only be matched by our imaginations, and soon it will surpass even that. There is no doubt that we are propelling ourselves towards something big, the question is what.

Throughout history there have been many for-tellers of doom. Talk of the end of the world is numerous throughout all times, yet most of the many instances the prophets were wrong. Our world still stands and life still goes on. But for how long? Disasters and calamities have also been numerous throughout our time here, many times devastating beyond anyone's ability to predict, and science tells us the disasters have happened that have put this entire world in jeopardy.

And yet, the vast majority of us live day in day out doubting that any great change will happen to us in our lifetime. Most of us are skeptic of this world coming to an end, yet that scenario is becoming more and more real with every passing moment. At any given time this world can be swept away, and there is very little we can do about it.

To add onto this, in the last sixty years humanity has actually found itself capable of destroying out planet with our very own hands! Ever since the end of the second world war humanity has been different then it ever was. In the last sixty years humanity graduated from being just another species on this planet to being an actual threat to this planets existence. Indeed the discovery of nuclear energy has put in our hands the power to do amazing things, yet we still refuse to mature.

In this last half decade we've managed to avoid sensational disasters at our own hands. But let me ask you, for how much more time are we able to do that?

Many movies and novels have dwelled on the possibility of rogue terrorist groups getting their hands on nuclear weapons and using it against the general public. Such a scenario is not far from reality. How long until this becomes true?

There are many thousands of nuclear weapons in this world, hundreds of which can be activated and used within the next half hour. There is enough energy in nuclear weapons to destroy this planet many times over, and they are still being made. How long until these weapons will be cheap enough for anyone to buy?

Furthermore, more countries are perfecting the technology to manufacture their own weapons of mass destruction, some of which are less sane and controlled then the ones that already have them, and who's security measures are more questionable then the miserable security systems already employed.

As scary as these scenarios are, and as very real that they are, we still find excuses of why we don't do anything, the chief of which is that we are powerless to do anything. This is far from true. By using the principles of Thou Art God and self-authority we will change the world. The more control you have over yourself the less control the power brokers will have. The only way to stop the world from being led into a dark future is if we take back the power from those who wish us no good.

Politicians, religious fanatics and extreme leaders must be taken down. We cannot afford to let other people control out lives. We cannot afford to have our lives out of OUR control. We've been sold a load of lies, now we must take it all back. It is the only solution. If we continue to neglect our responsibilities we will be responsible for the crimes done, not them. Those who stand by and do nothing are twice as guilty as those her perpetuate the crimes.

Everywhere I turn I am questioned, ridiculed. People call me a scam artist, a con man, a fool, a reject. I have no qualifications in their eyes. I am nothing, zero.

No matter what I do, what I learn, what qualifications I gain and what awards I win people still put me down. I am nothing and will always be nothing.

How do I deal with my lack of qualifications? How do I justify my lack of education, experience?

It is hard. Many nights I lay restless wondering what will come the morning after, wishing it will never come.

The economy scares us, the possibility of being fired scares us, being without money, without a home, without anything to sustain us, it all scares us to death.

How can we deal with this fear? How can we deal with this uncertainty?

Any day people will discover that we are not who we say we are, we are not as good as everyone else, we are not qualified, we are not fit to be where we are.

Then I remember- you are nothing as well. This whole system, this whole economy, this whole world is one big bullshit. Life is a game, and we will all end up in the same place. There is nothing out there that can beat us, as eventually we will all be beat.

Death will come no matter what we do, the end will come to all, and no amount of degrees, education, qualifications, money, friends or anything else will change that. Death doesn't care what you did or how good you were in life. Death doesn't care about anything, it takes all.

When the end comes, the entire world is equal to nothing. All is nothing, all is equal. There is nothing bigger then you in this world, nothing that can put you down.

If someone tells you that you are not good enough, laugh in their face and ask them if, in the face of death, there is anyone better then you.

Many of you who know me know that I have a great despise for Scientology. Many a time I'll walk by a scienologist producing propaganda on the streets and whisper a bald warning to them. Many people and entities have voiced their disdain for the Scientologist religion and it's structure.

But one must ask, what is the trouble with them?

I do not propose that the feeling of distrust is without merit, any organization that attempts to hide their basic beliefs and doctrines from public eyes must be deeply questioned, but where DOES it come from and what DOES Scientology actually say and do?

There is very little that is officially said by Scientologists. The official claim is that Scientology is an alternative method to psychology, but no alternative to psychology holds secret meetings and keeps it's methods secret and away from regulation. Indeed to even get into Scientology large sums of money are required and donations and more than encouraged by all members.

Why does Scientology work overtime recruiting knew people in such covert methods and pressure people into taking classes? And what do they have to hide?

By this point in time much has been revealed about Scientology, yet much still remains hidden.

Their back-story of Xenu, the evil overlord of the galaxy a million years ago, sending millions of people to die in volcanoes on earth is ridiculous and belongs with the rest of Hubbard's works of fiction, but it is no stranger than the story of a snake tempting eve into eating a fruit that beings knowledge and pain onto all of humanity. So why hide it?

Aside from the vicious circle of lies and deception surrounding Scientology, which alone is reason enough to highly doubt their motives, their are the rumors of corruption, greed, extortion, blackmail and murder. The validity of the many claims of Scientology members being killed and tortured is in question, but it calls for an investigation by the US government and ultimately an exposure of what is happening within Scientology.

But the greatest crime, ultimately, is the deep seated corruption of Scientology from the top. A minority of men sitting in the shadows, who control the entire organization and who make millions of dollars of the believers, capitalizing on many people brainwashed out of their money and the hard work of a science fiction writer, and who answer to no one and who have no bounds or regulations.

Indeed, this whole time we've been attacking the wrong ones. Sure, Scientology is an evil organization, but the people attacked are no more at fault than the janitor sent to clean up after. The people that should be identified and brought to justice are the ones who control the organization, the puppeteers of Scientology must be brought to answer for their crimes!

"A fool is one who goes on trusting; a fool is one who goes on trusting against all his experience. You deceive him, and he trusts you; and you deceive him again, and he trusts you; and you deceive him again, and he trusts you. Then you will say that he is a fool, he does not learn. His trust is tremendous; his trust is so pure that nobody can corrupt it. Be a fool in the Taoist sense, in the Zen sense. Don't try to create a wall of knowledge around you. Whatsoever experience comes to you, let it happen, and then go on dropping it. Go on cleaning your mind continuously; go on dying to the past so you remain in the present, herenow, as if just born, just a babe. In the beginning it is going to be very difficult. The world will start taking advantage of you...let them. They are poor fellows. Even if you are cheated and deceived and robbed, let it happen, because that which is really yours cannot be robbed from you, that which is really yours nobody can steal from you. And each time you don't allow situations to corrupt you, that opportunity will become an integration inside. Your soul will become more crystallized."

What is my technique? What is my method? A question I am asked quite often. How do I advise to achieve success? What techniques did I use and which worked for me?

There are a thousand self-help gurus out there advocating a million different techniques and strategies, mantras and meditations and a whole lot of hocus pocus. So much is out there that it just ends up getting everyone confused.

So of all these techniques and methods which one do I stick to?

My answer, to you, is that it doesn't matter.

It doesn't matter what I do, or how I did it. It doesn't matter how many times I repeated a sentence or meditated or did anything of a million different activities. Everything that I ever did was things that worked for me. For me, not for you.

The path that I traveled to achieved the successes in my life is my path, not yours. And no matter how much you try, and how tempting it might seem, and how much easier it looks than your path (which it is not) it is still not yours and you have no part in it.

In life you have your own path and your own problems which you must face and solve with your own solutions.

All that anyone else can do is give you advice on how to continue your journey down your own path, nothing more nothing less. This advice you can either accept or refuse, but that is your choice.

So what techniques do you use? That is an adventure that is up to you to find out. There are a million techniques to choose from, I discriminate none of them, though I disdain many. Use them, choose them, and figure out for yourself what will work for you.

All that I teach is the basic truths of existence. I give you the foundation blocks and mortar to Begin building with, which is why what I teach is so simple and basic, where you go after this is entirely up to you.

Life is an adventure, don't be so eager to skip to the end that you forget to live it.

So what exactly transpired the night before last?

Well, to remind you what I told you last time, I was sitting in the club, sipping Jack Daniels and feeling like I'm going no-where with any of the girls, I was approached by one of the girls at the club.

I noticed her before and might of said something to her earlier I didn't really break the ice before.

So she came over and sat near me, and it was obvious to me she was interested as at that time few people were left at the club, and she positioned herself in such away that I could not see her directly but she had a good view of me.

Well, being the man, I took the conversation to her- I got up walked over to her and made small conversation.

Now what exactly transpired there I cannot tell you, nor can I remember the exact details. But what I can tell you is that the idea of sleeping with her was out of the question. I was too exhausted and too tired of rejection for that night, I just wanted a conversation for conversation's sake.

Well, it is when you are least trying, and when you have just about given up, that success comes your way. Cause while we were getting into conversation she finally asked me if I wanted to come back to her place, and I agreed.

Now it wasn't the best sex I've ever had, but it was probably among the most passionate. And while you are feeling down and lonely it is the comfort of another person that makes you feel better, and not their mere touch.

The moral of the story? Not much, just what you have understood from it.

Now this website is very much the new-age and feel-good spot, where seduction encounters and loose sex does not usually go over very well thanks to politically correct extreme feminism. But this IS my blog and it is about me. So in the name of making MY blog more about my favorite person- moi. Thus I'll be posting more encounters from my real life to share with you.

Now this story happened to me last night.

Now I've got this parable which says that I went to the club and tried to pick up 20 different women, got shot down, blown out of the water, bashed and humiliated 19 times! Totally brought down and had my self esteem and manhood shot and killed every single time, and yet I still got laid.

Now many people, for some reason, think this is an actual story. And while it has happened to me many, many times in real life, the idea of the story is the moral, which is that no matter how many times you fail, you only need one victory to call it a win.

Now strangely enough, last night I was actually living this story, let me tell you about it.

I was at the club, by myself for some reason, enjoying myself when she came over to me, but before I tell you about her and the amazing story I must tell you that it has been quite a while since I've gone somewhere on my own.

As a matter of fact, lately I've been out quite often, but always with other people, never on my own. And while I'm quite good at hanging out alone and meeting new people it struck me that I was on my own this night.

Now aside from me having very little company I was already in a strange mood. I was already shutting down the Free Hugs campaign for the season and was thinking about what to do for the next upcoming months until the spring comes.

Now I was also in a dull mood, until she came around, as I tried to start conversations up quite a few times and it wasn't going so well. Now unlike my parable, I was not actually rejected, I can handle rejection, quite well too. With all the rejections I've had in the past I can handle the most brutal of rejections with ease. It's the nice rejections that get to me.

For example, I started a conversation up with these two young blonds, and it was going well. "So why don't we go grab a bite to eat and see how interesting you guys really are" and they reply "oh, we'd love to! But we promised our friend we'd meet her here." "that's fine! She can come too as long as she's not too weird" "sorry, you can go on without us." And we parted on good terms.

The next girl was even worse. I suggested "let's get out of here and grab a few drinks at my place. I'll show you my big fat amazing... cat." and she laughs and says "sorry, I need to be up earlier tomorrow" and she gives me her number and goes.

one after another, I'm rejected by women who need to get up early, women that have boy friends, women that have already picked up some other random guy and to whom I'm too polite to do anything about it.

So I ended up sitting there alone, savoring my sixth shot of Jack, watching everyone else having fun, watching everyone else pairing up and I'm the last one standing.

It was at this point that she showed up. She was nice, she was playful, and what I did with her, and what transpired I'm afraid I'll have to wait till next time to tell you exactly what transpired and what was said!

There are a few points in life that you must always remember:

1) You are going to die- this is not an offense or an insult, it is plain cold fact. Everyone is going to die and no one can escape from that. Furthermore, no one knows what happens after death, if anything at all, no matter what they say or what you are told.

2) The universe is infinite, and you are nothing in comparison to it.

3) The meaning of your life, if any, is a complete mystery to you that you most probably will never find.

4) You have choice over everything you do in life, and while things may happen to you that are beyond your control, you have complete control over how you react to it.

5) The only meaning in your life is the meaning you choose to give it, nothing more nothing less.